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The Man
Name: Mohamed Hafiz. A.k.a Fizzy Age: As you get older, you realise age doesn't matter. 23 if u still want to know.
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
When two hearts become one, a divine bond is made and it affects you strangely. Something that you can never explain in science, something which God has made beautifully for us humans But wat happens when that bond is broken or in shambles?? That's when the pain will come. I remember it clearly, the day she left me on the date that marks our two years of creating that bond. It's funny how a 2 year old creation was destroyed in just seconds. It shows that we humans are very fragile creatures, no matter how strong you are. I remember going through my break up. Nobody to talk to, nobody to share my problems with. Always screaming on the inside and doing stupid things. Slit my wrist, didn't eat, crying and depressions. Where was everyone? Haikal was busy with his life and other than him, i got nobody to talk to and it really amazes me how i got through that phase of my life. I vowed not to let anyone of my frens to ever feel the same way like i did. I'll be there for them and make them feel warm. Make them feel as if they're not alone who feels that way. I'm tearing while typing this post. And i haven't been crying in a long time(yes i do cry too...If you ppl wanna know, I was actually kinda a crybaby). So to my beloved Syak and Fana, I swear with all my strength in my body, i will be there for the both of you. I'm so sorry abt wat happened. But dun look back. The future is always bright. Enjoy your life. Cheers you two. Tears. No matter how much you wipe it off your eyes, if your heart is heavy and sad, there is no point in hiding it. As the tears will come again and again. It's as if it's a reminder, to tell you that this sadness is still there. It comes when you think abt the past. It comes when you feel warmth. It comes when you listen to your favorite love song and it reminds you of that special someone whom you adore. Even when you already have someone in your heart. Even when you have happiness with your frens. So cry. I envy both of you fana and syak. Many times in my life, i wanna cry..Just cry and let it all out. But I seem to fail in letting my emotions show. But maybe, just maybe, in the next few days, i will show it all. My heart has been heavy since yesterday. I lost my strength. I lost my will and my senses. Food taste bitter, water taste like sand and sleep seems so distant. Tears keep falling and i know it will keep on falling for my other half. Hearing her in pain but i couldn't do anything to make her feel better. I try to imagine the pain she's going through, but I can't even get it right. All I have are words of encouragement but is it enough? I'm totally clueless. I feel so helpless. Hearing her cry, knowing she couldn't sleep because of her sickness she's going through. It's hurting me, and it's gonna affect me. Why couldn't it be me instead? Why not toy with my life instead of hers. The thought of how i met you suddenly came to my mind. You were badly discriminated when you broke up with your ex bf of two years. You searched for love and acceptance in other guys and one by one, they rejected you and toyed with your feelings. You couldn't see that the person that you were seeking was in me. The whole class hated you but instead of spite, i gave you my hand. I started to slowly get into your life. You didn't accept me. You were still blind in your search for you knight in shining armor. I was hurt by what you said. By the qualities in what you want in a guy and it was everything that i'm not. "I may not be the one who fits your qualification of a man, but i can promise you, that if you give me a chance, i will make your morning filled with doves, your day filled with sunshine, i'll be your umbrella when it rains and i will make your night meaningful. i can't promise that you won't be sad, but i can promise you that you will smile more than you can frown" Those were the words i said to you before that incident happened. The glass piece incident. I bled and bled but i didn't feel the pain. I didn't even wanna get it treated cos i couldn't see a reason why. But little did i know, that with each drop of blood i lost, the more you felt you needed me, the more you cared and the more you loved and appreciated. And thus, 24/09/05 was the date we started our bond. I helped you through your hard times andhelped you recover from your scars in life. Laughing and loving our own fairy tale. But now, i cry. Because your life is at stake and you're hurt. And i feel helpless. I hope you recover soon Wani. I love you so much and you mean the whole thing in this world to me. I hope you get well soon. And i hope to give you laughter again.
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