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Name: Mohamed Hafiz. A.k.a Fizzy
Age: As you get older, you realise age doesn't matter. 23 if u still want to know.




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Tuesday, October 10, 2006

As i was cleaning up my room..I found something locked and hidden at my drawer.. Inside, photos, letters, hatred, hurt,despair and heart break. It's like finding locked memories and hidden truths..Hidden truths? more like denial..That's me..I'm a very denial person... And out of all the things that i've read.. One really strikes me..One that really reminds me how it was..Thank god for wani..Thank god for Haikal and Co....Thank god for P.O.G..Thank you for still putting me here on earth..Living and smiling..Thank you all...

Anyway..This was written for Su..This was what was written..

A word of advice though..It's very emo..I had no idea i was emo..haha..No wonder i know how they feel...EMO fiz..tsk tsk tsk..Oh and dun worry..i'm fine..not upset or anything..History is fun

"Dearest love,
I hope this message finds you well
As these endless thoughts drip from my soul
Every single word secretly paints a fairytale
Of when we will melt into one...

Eyes forfeit sight to the pain
Cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
As i cling to memories of you
I am so scared, so scared
I need you with me

Were the last words that i wrote for you enough to tell you
That in my death, the light shone through my painful darkness
Was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?


It's me again,
Is it me or am i wrong to be concerned?
Will the beauty of your pen ever cross my eyes again?
Was this all a lie?
Why?

Make it stop, make this pounding in my head stop
Fill my lungs with air, give me one more day to make your dreams come true
You understand right?
Or am i not suppose to come back?
Make it stop, make all this pounding stop
I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back
I don't know what happened...who would have thought my life would end up like this?
I didn't mean to hurt you, why do i hurt her like this?...I can't feel my legs
I can't feel my legs and i can't even cry
How could somebody ever feel like this?

If my words ever reach you, i'll assume you don't care
Never knew that silence could cut so deep or that you could twist the blade
Now i curse all your beautiful lies
I love you and now a goodbye


Cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
As i cling to my memories of you"

There it is..The unsent letter..The letter that was suppose to be for her but was meant for me..Understand? Of course not..Only i do..

I CURSE THAT DAY WHEN MY DREAM BECAME MY DESCENT, SUDDENLY, I LONG FOR YOU MY ONLY LOVE

posted at 1:37 PM by Fizzy

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