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The Man
Name: Mohamed Hafiz. A.k.a Fizzy Age: As you get older, you realise age doesn't matter. 23 if u still want to know.
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Thursday, June 05, 2008
I regret to tell you that this post won't be a happy one. Yes..i know i shouldn't be doing this but i dunno how else i can actually express and release this fucking big wave of emotions from my chest.  Sometimes...i still can't believe that you left.... Yes. It's been almost a month to be exact. But the truth still haven't kicked in into me. How could it? I spent a lot of time with you. And we could read each other like a book. Sometimes, i wish this was just all a dream. That i would wake up and voila!! Everything would be back to normal. But tough luck isn't it. Life or what you might say..Fate...has certainly ways to make a man broken. I know you're finding it hard to move on too. It's not like our relationship was a super horrendous one. Admit it..Even though there were bad times...You were happy.. And i was happy... There were so many things that i did and said that hurts you..I know..I'm not perfect..No one in this forsaken world is.. Everyone has their flaws. But is mine that horrible...Is my slacking, love for games, hot tempered moments and inability to actually priorities that you should always be first on the list that bad? That you have to leave me cold here and give me this fucking heartache that doesn't seem to go away, no matter how positively i tried to move on with life. If i was that horrible..Then why...why is it that i could only remember the good times that we had..It's human nature that we always think about the negative things then why is it that any of the arguments that we had aren't cropping up in my mind? I've worked hard for this relationship..Very hard..It was a test of my patience and energy. And i admit..somehow along the way..i lost it..But i've always tried to make it up to you. We have so much memories that are too precious to be replaced and forgotten. Your birthday ring..The pog sentosa outing..Chalets...Our 2 years anniversary...Geylang..Our Ds game competition(face it..you beat the crap out of me in elite beat agents)...So many that i could write down now...And it's ironic that when i think about this good memories, i smile with a big heartache along with it. Sigh..why am i saying all this...It's all over..A lot of damage has been done...And it's too late to turn back now with how things are right now..You're getting engaged...I'm just here trying get over you..Fuck fate..I dun believe in one..All i believe in is choice and actions..This is your choice i guess..And i can't help but feel that you've made a wrong one..You could have gone on much better now...a job..my mom...a lot of things...And to know the situation you are right now...It just keeps making me feel more upset.. I'm just pathetic aren't i..To be so loyal and keep believing in her.... Pathetic.... I know....
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