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The Man
Name: Mohamed Hafiz. A.k.a Fizzy Age: As you get older, you realise age doesn't matter. 23 if u still want to know.
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Monday, May 11, 2009
I can't take it anymore. Pressure is getting to me and i am finally succumbing to my depressions. Those happy pills are starting to look really tempting and i feel like i just wanna lie down in bed and sleep for 2 to 3 years just to lock myself away from this stupid predicament that i'm in. And FUCK YOU Hafiz. FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU. I'm so fucking pissed at myself. Why? Why do you have to be soooo fucking nice. Why can't you just stop being this way. WTF WERE U THINKING!!! HAIKAL WAS FUCKING RIGHT TO SCOLD THE SHIT OUTTA YOU. What did you actually think would come out from this? STOP BEING NICE YOU PIECE OF CRAP!!! There's no room for a nice guy like you in this fucked up world. NONE. Why can't you stop doing this to yourself.......It's not worth it ah Hafiz. People will just take advantage of you. And June is coming. It's almost here. I'm out of time to save my family. I'm too tired to even try to do something. I'm sick of talking. I'm sick of making plans to make them get back together. I give up man. I fucking give up on the both of you. The weather has been nice lately. Rain and heavy downpours all around. It's kinda ironic because somehow in the back of my mind, i think god was just helping me out. The rain felt comfortable to see. It's like HE made the rain to cry when i couldn't. Because i have always been the one to choke back the tears. Always the one to never really show. Thank you god. My morale has been really low ah. I can't seem to cheer up because i just can't seem to look forward to anything. Plus, the worse thing abt this right now is that, i feel so alone. I feel like the whole world is on my shoulders. Like it's me against the world. No, it's not because my friends haven't been there or anything. They've always been. It's just..right now...i dun think anyone knows what i am feeling or what i am going through. My head is in a mess. My love life is in a mess. My family is in a mess. My my my. Anyone can tell me what i should be looking forward to right now in life?? I need a shoulder I need a listener You don't have to say anything Just listen.. Listen and watch I need someone to know everything that i am feeling. But i don't have anyone Until morale improves...... I'll drink whiskey instead of water.....
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