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Name: Mohamed Hafiz. A.k.a Fizzy Age: As you get older, you realise age doesn't matter. 23 if u still want to know.
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Monday, July 27, 2009
Hey bro, welcome to the new and improved(maybe not) domain of mine as requested by you. Firstly, i'd like to apologize for the argument that happened. Until now, i feel really bad about it. You see, i kind of have this issue of opening up to people. Cos a lot of things happened that made me be this way. REASON NUMBER 1: Secondary School Yeah. In secondary school when i dropped to Academy Stream, we kinda drift apart and to tell you honestly, it was the most loneliest time of my teenager life. There were a lot of times that i needed someone to talk to but i never did cos face it, THEY are worthless piece of junk. Hassaan and Serah wasn't much of a help either. Hassaan always thought that i was the happy go lucky type and when i told him abt my probs, he would just look at me and laugh. Serah was always coming to me about her probs but when i wanted to confide in her, she seemed uninterested. So how fucking great can those two friends be. In the end, i bottled up. Keeping everything on the inside and i always thought to myself that nobody has to know how i feel cos nobody would be interested or would even care. I always thought that i was gonna be like "Squall" and just keep silent and be independent on my emotional problems. Haha. Crazy maggot. REASON NUMBER 2: Uncertainty Thats me. I dunno what the hell am i doing sometimes. Until now, i am still in contact with wani. Angry aren't you? I know you are and that's why sometimes i dun wanna tell you anything. I dunno why dude, i just can't stop myself from answering that call whenever she comes finding me again. I feel pathetic, well, used to. Cos i realised now that, i am just not that type to hold grudges ah kal. I'd rather make peace and with all this time that has passed and how i've seen her the way she is now, i am glad to tell you that i am over her. Really. You can trust me on this. I am uncertain about what i do sometimes. I can say one thing and do another. I just don't want you to feel that you've wasted your advice on me or something. REASON NUMBER 3: Wani She's another reason. Face it, i am gonna go all the way here. She was a nightmare to confide in. I can't confide in her at all cos nothing she says ever makes me feel better. LIKE REALLY. And she was the one who gave me the mindset that i should never trouble anyone with my problems when they have their own problems to face thingy. She's one heck of a problem wreck and me confiding in her might make her go grey or something. I think i've shared more problems with you than her for the 3 years that me and her have been together. Pathetic kan? And there wasn't a lot that i told you in those 3 years. But honestly bro, you shouldn't feel bad. Honestly, you are the FIRST person i will go to if i ever have something thats troubling me like crazy. And you are the only person who knows me MORE than anyone else. And yes, i am trying to learn to open up more to people cos i dun want to make them think that they are insignificant. This blog is my first step to opening up more and thats why only you(and maybe a few more selected individuals in the future) know about this blog. Thanks bro, I can never ask for a better Best Friend. Serious. But you DO need a haircut though. Haha. Happy anniversary between you and lin bro. Have fun tonight. I'll see you tml. Maybe now. You can understand me better
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