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The Man
Name: Mohamed Hafiz. A.k.a Fizzy Age: As you get older, you realise age doesn't matter. 23 if u still want to know.
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Monday, April 26, 2010
Greets from the geek my friends. I'm hoping that you're all fast asleep in this wee hour unlike me. Tried but couldn't and this is where it sucks. I hate not sleeping in this place. There's something abt this enclosed walls in this building that makes you start thinking about your life. Self reflection. Fucking great. How long has it been? A question that's bugging me tonight. In what seem like such a short space of time, I've gone from a fat fuck to a thin stick. And after all the time that has passed, let's see what's the damage done shall we?? *opens shirt* fuck!!!! *wears back shirt* let's just say I look better with the shirt on aight??? Surprisingly, I have only 5 more months left of ns life. Although it felt like only yesterday when all that nightmare happened. Depression from the break up, health issues, parents, rough times at db and love issues. It all feels like it's all behind me. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger as they say but let's reflect a lil bit more on this shall we?? I've began to accept my health and parent issues. All it took was acceptance and keeping an optimistic mind. Rough times at db??? Lol..not anymore. I'm the most senior and the NCO of my team now. The team is under my control and damn it's bloody sweet. Depression from the break up. Looking back at my photos this past year, no doubt, I'm happier then I ever was before. The depression made me realize who was the ones who really mattered to me and I'm glad that you've all pulled me out of it. Life isn't easy when there's goodbyes but lessons are made out of it. How long has it been since she left me? I can't remember how it all happened anymore and I do not wish to reminisce about it. There's nothing much to say about this except that I've blocked a lot of things/memories on those 3 years with her. That part of me is gone and she took it with her. But this is where it starts. This is what's been bugging me. Have I really given myself another chance?? What have I been doing all this while?? I keep saying that I don't need someone but it's just a lie. As I heard from my friends, she has another guy in her life. How much would that make it now?? 3?? I dunno, im just assuming. While I had zilch. In actuality, my heart is already with someone. But is it at the right place? I'm disappointed. What am I actually waiting for?? To whom am I being faithful to?? Dear miss, I can safely say that I love you. Really. You've been my enjoyable nights, my smiling delights and the light that's been shining upon me. I cannot believe it myself but through all the times, I've grown to know you more and find in you, one of the most awesome person alive. Almost at the same level as Gandhi! Hahaaha..ok..kidding.. Let's lay it all on the line shall we?? I have to be honest. I know as much as u that things will never be more than this. I'm not hoping that it would but judging from how it's going, I think I should be a realist and stop dreaming. Please do know that you are regarded highly and anyone, especially him, is absolutely blessed to have you by his/their side. Smile ok. Even if you want to put those braces on =) if only you could see how special you are like how I see it in you. It's sad but I guess I have to move on. Although with such a heavy heart but I can't keep on being like this. I think the time is finally right for me to look for someone. To open up these locks that I've been keeping on since her departure. Can you feel me love?? Til then =) P.s fuck... I really need to sleep man
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